-My days pass, almost as if they did not matter. As if there were nothing to do with time but spend it. I’ve often thought of it in just those terms, this has ofcourse been in my weaker moments. In which time becomes nothing more than something to be endured until some final rest. That is not now. Bur I fear, I at as if it is.
I can’t help it, I feel weak these days. Weak of mind and body. I’m sleeping a lot and having these elaborate dreams I can’t remember. I watch movies and zone out into some state of contemplation, not far removed from a whirlwind on indecision. It’s happened before, where concentration waxes an wanes, but it had been a while since. Now I find mysef, fighting myself and the decision I need to make quick. I’ve always been indecisive. Always felt like if I choose now, I may miss out on the better deal. The problem is, no deals are being offered. I think, I just may have to make my own.
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