Close my eyes

-I want to gather up what remains
attach the pieces of my shattered brain
put them together with some adhesive
even if it doesn’t fit quite right
I’ll close my eyes and pretend
that somehow I’ve mended
somehow I’ve made amends
for all the times I’ve fallen
all the times I’ve bled
Somehow I keep holding on
keep hoping and praying
that everything’s not gone
keep crying out hoping
I haven’t lost everything
(…and I’m)
crawling in the dark
my head fallen in shame
Nails scratching at the surface
trying to find the pieces of me
that’ll help me salvage my mind
I lost my soul, long ago
in my dreams, can’t be so lofty
My knees are bruised
been here far too long
my nails are worn thin
and I fear everything is gone
I’ll close my eyes and pretend
that somehow I’ve mended
somehow I’ve made amends
for all the times I’ve fallen
all these times I’ve bled
And I keep scratching endlessly
hoping to find the shards to save me
pieces of myself now fallen
I was a fool to let go
I’ll close my eyes, close my eyes
hoping for a spark to get through
something to light the way
help me believe in just one more day